I’ve lived in the Midwest most of my life, it’s what I know, what I’m familiar with. The idea of living on a coast was always so appealing but well, I was simply so Midwestern, as amazing as it seemed, it too seemed equally foreign. It certainly wasn’t something we expected.
Yet, God had something different planned for us. Never in our plans would we have thought New York would where we would end up, never did we intentionally pray that we would be uprooted, we simply prayed for a job for my husband.
Our expectation was simple, a job. It was a good prayer, one each of us in the family took turn saying. We knew the need and understood what we prayed, yet, what would have occurred had we prayed with more expectancy? At night, when the business of the day has settled, we sit together. We each say what we’re thankful for followed by one thing each person feels we ought to pray for. It’s become such a special time for our family and one the kids love to hold us accountable for when we miss.
We felt the practice of asking consistently to be ample, yet, was that asking out of faith? We’re we asking what seemed bigger than us or what simply seemed safe? For us, we sought what we needed and we’re so thankful He wanted to do more. We’re so thankful that though we prayed for the minimal He had more in store. We’re so thankful that He didn’t answer our prayer as we asked, providing us with a job that only had nice work hours and decent pay. We’re so thankful that He answered with more to stretch us, to allow growth, and renewal.
Prayer was created not for only those with watermelon sized faith. It wasn’t created for those who articulate well their thoughts, if so, I’m ruined for I’m not articulate and my faith often is in lack. It is rather a way for us to talk to God, to lay before Him our concerns, even our thanks. Yet, it too is a way for us to simply talk to Him, to lay who you are before Him without fancy connotations, it’s laying before Him your concerns and needs, and simple words from your heart. We are a mess, we’ve made mistakes that are simply embarrassing so we definitely wouldn’t qualify if this were the case.
Yet, I think we often seek according to how we feel about ourselves. We didn’t seek beyond the need because we didn’t feel it ought to, that maybe we deserve it. Yet, we are to seek, we are to believe it isn’t in us but Him to answer. It’s not in our capabilities. We certainly didn’t deserve God’s answer to prayer, yet, He chose to bless and we’re so, so thankful.
Expect the unexpected.